I started the day with my Dad Chauffeuring me to the surgeon’s office then to the hospital to register. I highly recommend his chauffeuring company! But I think he is exclusive only to daughters. The nurses at the hospital are angels. They arranged for the IV to be left in so that after the surgery I can go down to the other hospital and get a PET CT scan and not have to get another IV. Since all my veins are shot this was a huge blessing. We tried to get them to do the bone marrow biopsy while I was asleep, but no luck. Only an oncologist can do it and my oncologist doesn’t have clearance at this hospital.
While I was at the hospital, the PET Scan scheduler called and said they can only do it Thursday at 11:30. So the nurses at the hospital right then change the whole schedule around to get me in at 7:30 am so I can make it to the Pet scan. This meant a lot of work for them. I said, “I’m sorry!” The nurse said, “Don’t be sorry. That is our job to do what is best for the patient.” I can’t tell you how touched I am by the tenderness of the 2 nurses. They arrange for me to get my blood done there by the expert instead of sending me off to a different lab. They came
with me and gave me a hug and said they new I could get through this. One nurse said she would come over to pre-op to be with me. I was so touched by this. The truth is I wouldn’t probably appreciate these nurses if I hadn’t experienced such a horrible nurse in the beginning. By the way, the mean nurse Sherrie called while I was at the hospital. She was mad I went to Dr. Shiftan the oncologist and was scheduled for the biopsy tomorrow. She said no one told her. I asked her if she knew an oncologist who could do the bone marrow test and she sad no, and some other rude thing I can’t remember, and hung up without a good bye. I just have to tell myself she is having a worse week than me.
Then my brothers kidnapped me and took me to the wild animal park. It was such a wonderful relaxing day. Thanks to my Mom and friends at home it made it possible for me to escape for a few hours and just breathe.
Today I received a great shot of perspective. I realized more about life today and what really matters. I keep a very busy schedule and I’m usually running around like crazy. Today I got the chance to really think about what life is about. It is about experiences. Life is full of so many joys and trials. We get the awesome ability to chose how we react to our experiences. All the times I stressed over such little things seemed to just fade away today. I really got the chance to breath and remember how much I love life. I love my relationships. I love all the wonderful and horrible things that have happened to me that helped shape me into the
person I am today. I realized today I was being prepared to fight cancer. I’ve lost 5 babies through miscarriages and I have endured really difficult pregnancies. I know what miracles truly are I had the privilege of having 3! With those triumphs under my belt I’m now ready to take on one of the scariest things that can creep up on a person, Cancer. I’m scared of the surgery tomorrow and confident at the same time. I know this is my first step in a HUGE
battle ahead of me. Thank you all for helping me get my battle gear on with all your love and prayers. So tomorrow hug & kiss your kids and loved ones and let them know how much they mean to you!! Love them just a little more and take the time to forgive!! Life is just too short!!
Susie, I just wanted to say that you truly are an inspiration. You’re definitely not alone in this battle, we’re all here fighting the good fight with you. Come treatment time, I’m SO ready to distract with you all my crazy “single life” stories.
…haha…wait a minute…I have crazy single life stories???…eh, I’ll make something up!
lots of love!!
Ash
Today was an emotional day that’s for sure. I was glad to be able to kidnap you. I let allot of baggage go and I feel allot more free. you have such and impact on so many lives that if god was going to teach a great deal of people a huge life lesson, he would pick the strongest woman I know.
When I think of why this is happening to you it takes me back to the story when God said, “Thou art not yet as Job”. I hate that you have to go threw this but you are Such a Strong person and this will experience, no matter how bad it gets will soften the hearts of so many. It will remind people how mortal we are. We are hear for you, But I will be the first to thank you for being strong and going threw this experience. I know you did not ask for it! But no one can endure and touch more people with this than you. My little faith in god is strengthend at the example and sheer 2×4 he uses at times to wake people up. You are his 2×4 and he is ready to swing…
http://scriptures.lds.org/en/dc/121
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Hi susan. You don’t know me personally but I am a good friend of Kevin’s. I won’t even begin to pretend like I know all about you but I do know by the way kevin talks of you that you are indeed special, and very much loved. I’ve walked with others down this road before and I know what it entales, and how hard it is. But I am glad to know that there are so many people by your side. I hope to meet you soon.
Hey girl we are sooo glad things are starting to move along for you (the doctors and results). I really appreciate the updates, our friendship and sisterhood means alot to me and not knowing would be not be cool. I know you are strong enough to do this, I am not but you are. Hang in there and give the kids an extra hug from my crowd.
love ya
chris and gang
Please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you. We love Kevin and appreciate being informed of your progress. You have a wonderful outlook about this mission you are about to begin. Your positive attitude will attract and bring much good to you. I am looking at a quote from Brigham Young I have posted in my office. It says, “…there is not a trial which the saints are asked to pass through that they would not realize and acknowledge to be their greatest blessings.” It sounds to me like you already know this. May the Lord’s healing power be with you and bless you and your sweet family. May you be strong and be sustained by the faith and prayers of all who know and love you. May you feel of our love for you and be at peace with the road you must travel. You are an inspiration. All my love, Ellen Morris