I seem to have a lot of near death experiences happening to me lately. Today I was driving back with Tyler from San Diego after we had finished his counseling session, which was WONDERFUL. He came out smiling and really like the counselor, Cara. She was very impressed with how articulate he is and how he is able to identify his feelings. I was really pleased that he enjoyed this experience. Then he wanted to have some special Mommy time so we went to eat at TGI Fridays and enjoyed talking all about life. We talked about how he has lots of feeling and they are different all the time. I said I felt the same way, that my feelings were different every day. It was a great conversation, we really bonded. It was a wonderful teaching moment that I will forever treasure. We were on our way home when I saw a semi truck start swerving and then I saw a HUGE pipe fly up from under the semi and hit the semi next to me. The pipe shattered the window of the semi and glass shattered all over my car and then here comes the pipe flying right at my windshield. Like some weird forcefield was surrounding my car, the pipe flew right over the car and landed right behind the car on the freeway. The pipe should have crashed right through my windshield. It was like watching it in slow motion, it was coming right at us and it changed course up and over my car. I have angels out there!!! Some might say luck or timing, but if you had been in that car you too would have seen a miracle. I guess it’s not my time to go. Russ says I’m like the movie, “Final Destination.”
Adam asked me yesterday, “Mommy who is going to take care of me when you die?” It was a very sobering question. I was shocked that my little 4 yr old was thinking about me dieing. I tried to calm his fears and told him I planned on being alive for a very long time and that we don’t know when we are going to die. Everyone is different. But it made me think of how short life is no matter how long we live. What things do I treasure and spend my energy on? Do I feel I have lived my life in a way I would do again? As I reflect and really think about what is most important and what would happen if I died, I want my children to know they are loved. I want them to have a firm foundation in the Lord and have values to be good men. If I do die too soon, I want to leave behind LOVE. Love is what is able to touch our souls and last forever. Love can’t be bought and it will never age or go bad. It is something we all posses in abundance and we can use it freely. We are all very RICH with love.
ALL MY LOVE!
I’m so glad Tyler is finding a way to express his emotions…it’s hard when young kids have so many questions that we don’t have all the answers for, and especially when they affect your family. I am so in awe of your energy and drive to be able to be there for your family during your chemo.
Just talked with Tanya and she said we’ll be bringing you some meals very soon. Brenna missed Adam at playgroup Monday. Know we love you guys!
Thanks for coming to my shop today Sue, I miss you. I miss the feeling I get when I am around you. You have that aura of love and greatness. I will see you tomorrow night!
there are angels among us. I glad that you two were safe. tyler is a really smart kid, and I am so happy to hear that his session went well. I hope you keep having really good days
chris
Glad you had such a great day with Ty. You are so right, in the end, love and relationships are all that matter.
How scary to watch something like that happen. I am so glad that the lord was watching over you. You have really helped to strenghten my faith as I watch go through this challenge. I really am believing that the Lord only gives you as much as you can handle. Reading your entries daily I have learned what a strong woman of God you are. I hope that you know how much love you have shared with all of us. I am humbled by your experiences and will give extra thanks to my heavenly father tonight for my family and the love I feel from each of them.
So all along it has seemed like you have had super powers, but now this experience just proves it. Have you tried moving pipes at any other time? In all super hero movies more and more powers are learned in time, keep us updated on what else you can do besides move things with your mind. You really are amazing! I’m glad you and Tyler are ok! Much Love!
Please, please, please PUBLISH THIS STUFF! Susan, you are living out your purpose her on earth every day. THANK YOU for always including humor and inspiring thoughts. And let’s thank those angels that protected you today!
Take care, Lisa
Wow, that’s so amazing about the pipe! I truly feel you are a blessed girl. I am so glad that everything went well with Tyler. I have been thinking about you guys and am glad that you have an outlet to work on things with him.
I must tell you, that of all the lessons you have taught ME through all of your struggles, the one I carry with me daily is exactly what you mention here about the shortness of life and living each day to it’s fullest. There have been so many times in my day-to-day life as a SAHM that I face frustrations with my kids, but your strength has guided me and helped me realize how precious this time is with them. I truly try to treasure the little things and special moments. It is a gift you have given me that I cannot repay, but I do want to say “THANK YOU.”
Much love and pleasant dreams!
Wynne
Wow…sus…that gave me chills…serious chills. If you didn’t know before…surely you know now that you are meant to be here…it just isn’t your time to go. Wow…
Thank you so much….like everyone else has said…. for sharing all of your wonderful experiences, feelings, lessons. It really is inspiring.
Dear Susan, I hope and pray that the new pain medicine is helping. You are wise beyond your years and it is so uplifting to read your entries. I love your thoughts about not caring what others may think-because you know who you are. I have heard illness referred to as a health oppurtinity, because we can learn so much from it. You absolutely personify this thought. The Spirit of courage and faith radiates from you. Thank you for all that you share. My prayers are with you.
Love, Linda Kilby