Time for a PET Scan August 19, 2007

I have my PET Scan set up for 12:30 tomorrow. This is the scan where they wear vests and put radioactive material into my veins to light up the cancer cells. I will be radioactive tomorrow and once again I won’t be able to be around the kids for 24 hours. I gave them extra hugs & kisses tonight to last through tomorrow. We also joked that this might give me super powers. Ty was annoyed that this was happening and said, “Yea like super cancer growing powers!” I got him to smile when I told him I would like to have superhero powers to know if he was ever naughty or happy! He doesn’t like it when he can’t snuggle with me. I’m glad we were able to prepare him this time. Last time we had no idea that I wouldn’t be able to hug the kids so it was more of a shock. So if you happen to see my kids tomorrow give then some extra love from me. This morning I was a mess of emotions. I really had a lot of anxiety about tomorrow. It is really scary to know you are going in to see if your cancer is shrinking or growing. It’s the moment of truth. You hope with all your heart it’s gone, but in the back of your head all you hear is the million stories of people dying from cancer. It’s amazing how many people are affected by cancer. It seems everyone knows someone who has had it or died from it. The anxiety can be overwhelming. All the thoughts of what I will do if the results are bad are going through my mind. I try so hard to push them out and stay positive but in the quiet moments it’s hard to keep the thoughts at bay. I like to prepare for things. I need to prepare either way for the results. The last time I had a PET scan was an hour after surgery and the results were overwhelming. So it didn’t leave me with the greatest feelings. I have to get an IV b/c they can’t use the port. The IV alone is awful due to my small collapsing veins. So say a prayer they find a vein the 1st try! I hope to know the results sometime this next week or it may not be until next Tuesday. I will post the video of my last PET scan this week so you can see the cool 3D views of my cancer. (I think it would be WAY cooler if it wasn’t MY body.) Wish me luck tomorrow!